I always want to change my attitude towards everything !
because I really fed up of being the
Because everybody hates me. including myself :'(
To be frank, I dont know what is
the main purpose in my life, in other words,
I couldn't find any reason to live??? OMG
what a useless person in this world !!!!!
Well, today I had my group presentation,
I feel disappointed for myself because
I didnt prepare it very well.
And I feel like I'm a zombie during the presentation,
because I just speak awhile then stare at the script
and continue speaking, and then stare it again,
and repeat and repeat the steps.
And after I've finished it, I ask myself...
What have I presented actually?
I didnt feel the content at all,
do you know what I mean???
my presentation is very rush you see,
because I dont like the feeling of
standing in front of so many people
and interact with the audiences,
and the most importantly,
interact with those senior students,
compared to us, their level of education
is much much more higher than us.
And I feel insecure because I'm afraid of
giving the wrong information to them
and they would look like awww.
what a presentation ! or
perhaps I've been thinking too much.
But anyway, the most interesting part for today
of course is the Q & A session, since this is the
first time we got to answer the question individually
but of course with some backup ideas
given by our group members.
Well, I can feel the challenging !!!
And I like it very much,
because that is the time
you've to come up with your
own opinions, own words, and
there's not much time for you to think,
or to prepare your answer !!!
Yes, I like this kind of feeling,
because that's the only time that
makes me feel that I'm still alive =.=''
and it allows me to think actively,
instead of being a zombie and
vomit out everything from the report @.@
So so so, I wanna change my attitude :D
