Nobody knows how suffer am I.
Let me ask you. When you've tried many times to solve that particular problem but still you fail every time. So, what would you do next? Give up or try again? For example, your bad habits?
You always convince yourself to break your bad habits. Unfortunately, you never make it. In fact, it is extremely hard for a person to change his/her bad habits. And sometimes people dont change is simply because they are afraid of the consequences or afraid of losing their bad habits since it has already followed them such a long period. Well, is this called resistance towards something new? Hmm. like what LP's lyrics mentioned The hardest part of ending is starting again. Ya, the first move is always the most difficult part, everyone knows it. Therefore, keep on trying !
But again, you failed. FED UP right?